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A breakup song on repeat—the chorus goes “Oh, God, where did I go wrong?” I know where. I’m sitting on the same couch.  I know the address. I don’t know how. There isn’t even anything to break up. When we were questioned about what we were doing, I said I love you but have noContinue reading "How."

Stoya’s Book Club was for people who enjoy reading, and talking, about sexuality. We covered classic and modern sexual fiction (think Georges Bataille’s Story of the Eye through Saskia Vogel’s Permission,) the suggestive to the erotic, and educational material like Emily Nagoski’s Come As You Are. When possible, authors were invited to speak about theirContinue reading "Stoya’s Book Club"

I know distractions are helpful for me. I hear they’re helpful for other people, too. Life With Althaar — A radio play style science fiction podcast about a man who has to move off of Earth in the wake of a teleportation accident, is free on iTunes, PodBean, and probably some other places. Dean HaspielContinue reading "An Update"

I took a break between Gregorian Christmas and Gregorian New Years. I stayed at home. I read Jacqueline Carey’s Imriel Trilogy from her Kushiel’s Legacy series, borrowed from a very lovely couple who attend Sex Lit regularly. I didn’t write a New Year’s post. Or a 2019 recap. I don’t think we did a topContinue reading "New Year, New Blog [...]

Someone in what looks like one of Francois Sagat’s fractal head shirts with the sleeves cut off weaves through the crowd, their purposeful movement marking them as part of the event’s organizational team. I’m at the first town hall for sex workers, held in Queens, NY with Suraj Patel, a candidate running in the DemocraticContinue reading "Sex Workers Town Hall"

I don’t know anything about Brazil. Ok, I know they mainly speak Portuguese, and evolved from a Portuguese colony. I know that in Civ 5 the Brazilian player gets extra culture from jungle tiles. I know they just had a religious holiday of some kind, and that they were recently protesting something regarding gasoline. ButContinue reading "Brazil"

On Monday I was informed that our applications to Visa and MasterCard had just been submitted. I thought that was weird, since I’d paid the associated fees a couple of weeks prior. I felt frustrated, because our planned launch date (May 24th—today) was approaching quickly and Visa approval can take up to 21 business days.Continue reading "May 24th"

Belgrade to NYC to Paris to NYC to Malibu to NYC to Belgrade. There was a feature film, a short film, a Sex Lit event guest starring Joanna Angel, and at least one photoshoot in there. No video pornography yet this year, but… stay tuned. I’m in Belgrade for the premier of Ederlezi Rising. NoContinue reading "Free Time"

Last year we did three editions of Sex Lit—a book club, meeting in Gowanus, Brooklyn. We started with Story of the Eye, continued with The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty, and closed with Story of O. Some books on the list for future events: Laura Antoniou’s The Marketplace Nicholson Baker’s House of Holes J G Ballard’sContinue reading "Sex Lit: Joanna Angel’s [...]

It was still there, years later. That immediate magnetic comfort. When I did pull away from our hug I didn’t pull away by much. Our faces stayed close together for long enough to wonder if they might kiss me, if we did kiss whether it would still feel like inhaling some kind of balmy cloud.Continue reading "Loop"

“Radno Vreme,” said the sign on the front of the shop. I assumed it meant something about hours of working, from context. “Vrlo rado,” said my brain, which insisted on drawing a connection that isn’t really there. Many words that have to do with work begin with “rad” but not all words that begin withContinue reading "To Roll an R"

I’ve always had a thing about the term “porn actor.” The phrase never felt accurate when applied to my work. Sure, some of the on-camera talent in pornography thinks of what they do as acting, but I don’t. I think of my day job as performing. Yes, many of the scenes I’ve done during myContinue reading "Acting"